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"Pay attention to your feelings and follow your gut. A lot of victims of sexual abuse tend to block out memories they have of the incident only to be triggered by painful reminders: specific sounds, smells, words and facial expressions. If you suspect that you were sexually abused, you probably were. Trust you feelings and memories."

~ Carol Boulware, MFT, Ph.D.

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I know for me personally... my being has still blocked out memories... new ones surface from time to time but they don't flood me as much as they used to when I first started this process.   What I struggle with most now is trying to remember good memories... I have an aweful lot of bad ones that I've dealt with and now I'm ready to begin remembering some good times... but they too have been blocked out.

I remember going into the store and smelling something I'd not smelled in nearly 30 years and I couldn't quite put my finger on what the smell was but all sorts of images and people from my past which associated with the smell popped into my head... it was odd because they weren't bad memories persay... but they included people I had experienced bad things with... and yet the memories weren't frightening.  Our minds are an unbelieveable machine.  I'm telling you it was as though time had not passed the smell was so present for me.  I never did find out what the smell was exactly but I know it was connected to some good memories because the feelings were very comforting and soothing... one day...

i know i been abused since i was little it something that i will never forget but the memories of what happen fails me i only know bit bby bit its hard. When i turn my nipple it always makes me cry so much so i know something had to happen i hated

Triggers...yes! Like the smell of coconut...he used a coconut scented sun cream...a certain type of blanket...someone putting there arms around me from the back...urgh